This is one of those posts that makes my heart race when I think about writing it.
It’s one of those posts that I feel like I shouldn’t write, but God is urging me to write. That makes me think that there must be someone else out there in this same position. Someone else who needs to read these words. Because, friends, let me be completely honest with you. I need to read these words.
I feel like this post is a post that should be written after I figure out a solution, after I’ve got it all under control. Then, I could be of some help to someone else. But right now, I’ve got nothing.
But, for some reason I’m being led to write. Now. In the thick of it.
This isn’t a mindless rant. I’m not looking for sympathy. I’m simply writing because that is what I do, and maybe someone else will be in a similar situation and we can pray for one another.
So, here we go.
Do you remember your New Year’s resolutions? Did you choose a word to focus on in 2013? Do you even remember what that word is?
I remember mine. It was “intentional”.
But I have been anything but intentional this year.
My life is out of control.
Do you ever feel that way?
My priorities are out of whack.
I’m spiritually drained. My quiet time is basically non-existent.
My husband and children are taking a backseat to lesser things.
I love blogging. I love the girls that I do VA-work for. These opportunities are blessings, but they must fall in line where they belong.
My house is a mess.
School work is rushed.
Burn out is definitely right around the corner.
This is me being absolutely real with you.
If you don’t believe me, let me tell you a true story, that took place yesterday:
My sweet daughters woke up and deemed the day “Best Mommy Day”, they brought me coffee and breakfast while I was working. They wrote me sweet notes. It was beautiful. But you know what? Less than eight hours later, I’m yelling and screaming like a maniac because we can’t find a ballet slipper.
That behavior is not normal for me.
It is completely uncalled for and unacceptable.
It was the culmination of being over-stressed, overwhelmed, unbalanced and under-focused. It was the result of days spent living on my own and not for God.
Friends, we can only keep up that pace for so long.
Are you feeling it?
If you don’t make a change now, you’re surely headed for a halting stop.
I’m there. Stopped dead in my tracks.
Changes must be made.
What are those changes? I’m not entirely sure.
God is leading me back to Him and what truly matters.
From what He has already revealed, I don’t think He is removing anything from my plate, but I will be managing what He has given me better.
If there are a few days of silence, please forgive me.
I’m spending much needed time in prayer with God and my family.
Can I add you to my prayers?
Have you forgotten those resolutions you made?
Are you needing to realign your focus?
If so, let me know.
When life shakes us up, and turns us upside down, we must cling to Him and His promises. He will set our world straight again, if we only allow Him to do so.
You’re not alone. Your sisters in Christ are here, walking this same road and lifting you up in prayer.
Keep going, homeschool moms! Even on the bad days, you’re making a difference.